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i gave away the knife that my grandfather left me
'cause cleaning up your blood was too much to take
your parents said "we'll be home tomorrow" all week
but when the ambulance came they were still out of state
so i curled up beside you in your hospital bed
the surest way to my heart is scaring me to death
every damn time i relive that night
i do everything different but nothing goes right
oh babe i know
oh babe i know
you said you didn't mean half of the things
that you said while you were drinking
if i'm so afraid of you why am i afraid of you leaving
you asked more of me than i had to give
if love isn't labor i don't know what it is
your smile has changed
i'm sorry
i didn't mean anything
you're right
i shouldn't have said that
no, i'm not looking for a fight
i understand
you need some time
i'll talk to you later tonight
go, babe, just go
go, babe, just go
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you pull me down until i fall into you
we catch our breath, you said we should move into your room
our clothes hit the ground and your hands begin to move
i know we shouldn't be doing this but i'm so into you
i still feel your hands on my neck
i wish i could forget
but i can't take any of this back
so i'll live with this until i can't
one last time i'll text you goodnight
when i get home but you'll know that i mean goodbye
"it's better off this way" we hear each other say
'cause you don't want to marry me and i don't want you to change
i still feel your hands on my neck
i wish i could forget
but i can't take any of this back
so i'll live with this until i can't
you found me right when i hit solid ground
it still means something if it didn't work out
i can't say i always make the best decisions
but loving you was one of the better ones
every morning after every night we spent together
i remember being tired; if i cared, i don't remember
i've been running for so long i've almost forgotten quite what from
i can't promise you anything but i'm trying to move on
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queer love collective
03:28
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you're a great example of the ways i'm bad at love
maybe i would love myself if i could make you love me enough
i wanted to feel wanted
you came to me with needs
the best thing you ever gave me was a reason to leave
and now you're dead to me
you stole my body in my sleep
nobody recognizes me
what you thought you saw, you didn't see
who you thought i was, was never me
cross my heart and i hope to fight
cross my heart and i hope to fight
i'm careful with my body
in ways i've learned i need
i'm not afraid of you anymore
'cause i don't deserve to be
you told me i made this worse for you
reminded me it was my word against yours and mine was going to lose
'cause you're so popular
i waded in too deep
caught the current; lost my feet
with no strength to swim
i sank into the sea
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wants and fears
02:10
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i would cut off the parts of me
that make me awkward and ugly
to you
it's the least that i can do
in exchange for your time and energy
i can't promise you anything
and i am sorry for everything
that i'll do
that i won't make up to you
i'm just scraping by
on the hopes that i won't die
and it works every time
i lay my eyes on you
i don't know why
i thought it'd be a good idea to try
to tell you how i feel
you already know exactly what you're getting with me
i'm just scraping by
on the hopes that i won't die
and it works every time
i lay my eyes on you
i'm just scraping by
on the hopes i'll be alright
'cause it hurts every time
i say goodbye to you
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stranger danger
05:06
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i don't know what you're about
and i'm not taking the time to find out
i don't know where you're coming from
i'm running on assumptions
oh my god i wish you could see that it's always been about me
oh my god i wish you could see that it's always been about me
it's not like the world you see looks so different from mine
we just arrived along different lines
it's not each other we should fight
we're stronger together
i don't know what you're doing here
but it's clear to me i have reason to fear
i don't care who you think you are
i'm going to bet your life you aren't
oh my god i wish you could see that it's always been about me
oh my god i wish you could see that it's always been about me
i don't know what you need
and i don't get why that matters to me
can't you see i'm too busy
scraping by for empathy
oh my god i wish i could see that it's never been about me
oh my god i wish we could see that it's never been about what we need
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